For the Writer with Self-Doubt

Laura Winter
Oct 8, 2019 · 2 min read
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“I am a writer.”

I look at myself in the mirror and try saying it again.

“I am a writer.”

Why do the words taste so strange? So empty?

It feels like I’m taking credit away from the ‘real writers’. You know, the ones with published material, either self-published or from an actual publisher. Those are the writers. Those are the people who have gone through the hardships. They’ve pushed through rejection, fought over their content, edited for months and years, written so much that will never see the light of day, labored over queries, and sent manuscripts and persevered through it all. Those are the real writers.

But I am a fraud.

I have one self-published Amazon book, and two complete drafts and two separate half manuscripts on my computer that are only ready for more edits. More edits and rewrites. I haven’t been doing this for years — but they have. I didn’t have this ache in my soul to write when I was five — but they did. I didn’t write for a school newspaper or enter writing contests or submit pieces to magazines and websites growing up — but they did. I didn’t know I wanted to be an author someday — but they did.

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But I am still just as much a writer as they are.

Just because I haven’t “done the time” or taken the “writer’s route” doesn’t mean I’m not a real writer. Even if my content never made it beyond my desktop, I’d still be a writer. You know why?

Because I sat my ass in the chair (and more often bed) and I typed… and typed and typed. I wrote. I told a story, and it exists somewhere outside of my head. Just because I recently found out about writing doesn’t mean I’m not a writer. Others may have more experience under their belts, but that doesn’t mean I won’t get there one day. The only way I won’t is if I stop writing. Then, I would not be a writer.

“I am a writer.”

I stay with it. I continue to type. I find little snippets of time throughout my day to cultivate this passion. I get up early and work on what I can. I stay up late and finish that one sentence before my eyes finally win the battle. I constantly find places where I can learn and hone my skills. I am a writer. I am a real writer.

So are you.

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