Trans Journey Day 168: So apparently, I gaslight myself! My homework this week is to not blame myself for it.

Therapy is the fun pain of having a screwdriver wrapped in rusty barbed wire shoved into your brain and rotated until it touches on the edge of that place that makes you all tingly in your happy places and want to slowly lick icecream. Yeah, I don’t know either. Roll with it!

The realization from today’s session with GT was that I totally fucking gaslight the shit out of myself. No matter what I do or what happens, it always comes back to being ‘my fault’.