Trans Journey Days 262/263: Not existing right now. I’m in post-editing sub-drop. It’s a thing.
That post-stage, after writing a book (or in this case, editing 12k in two days), feels very much like sub-drop.
When I wrote the last word of my first book (165k words typed in two months while working full-time), I experienced what I liken to sub-drop for two solid weeks. Or four years since that’s how long it took to edit and publish.
But in that post-state is where the guilt and shame kicks in.
The epic achievement is lost because NOW, I’m being ‘lazy’ (eye-roll) and not…