Trans Journey Days 266–267: OMG, finding the equilibrium in hyperfocus and consistency excites me as much as it terrifies me. But it’s that loss of balance I’ve been searching for!

You read that right, the LOSS of balance. Because I learned a while ago that ‘balance’ is not necessarily a great thing to strive for — at least, it’s not when your perceptive belief of balance is like mine: Even, stable, no dips, and no highs. Sacrifice for something boring…🤮

So, GT (my gender therapist for those who haven’t been playing along from the start) suggested the term ‘equilibrium’. It hits better. For me. It is a place to come back to…