Asperger

Grief — mourning. What’s for breakfast? Nagging questions (next to the fruit mixer). Did you call last night? No feedback, please. Wet, warm and purposefully obscure. Midday. Which way to go now? Waking hours. Some. Not so lucid. Return. Relapse. Re-whatever. Run-of-the-mill. I will — myself — to forget.

The two of them had the exact same ideas. Pure mathematics could’ve proven it. They agreed on every weakness, shared a common sense of inadequacy and they equally longed to be misconstrued. They spoke different languages, though. Mutually exclusive terms, failing to come full circle — abashed, if anything. And, consequently, they talked past each other — big time. So, at precisely 1:07PM (or 13:07), after coffee and cakes, they left their table, exchanged an awkward smile, and kept wondering what all that has been about.

Technically, the term “Asperger’s syndrome” is no longer officially used in diagnostic manuals like the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, 5th edition), but it is still commonly used to describe a specific profile of autism. My diagnosis was confirmed a while back after a daylong battery of…

“Zak, c’mon. He said take it easy because you were stressing him out.” “He snarled ‘Back off now!’” “Okay, so he said back off — and I think he was right.” “I simply pointed out a flaw in the manufacturing process. The sateen lining is liable to break. The part…

Nothing in this wicked world is black or white. Just because I have this over that does not mean I cannot have or be both. And, then, like a merry-go-round, we come back to the phrase discussed in the first few paragraphs: “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.” — Battered up again, I’m going right inside Curled up on the floor Wonder ways to kill the pain and What doesn’t kill you will only make you pissed off!

This is a story of the decline of our standards. I expect the opinions I express here may be controversial but honestly? I don’t mind it. …

My twin flame’s Asperger paradigm —

a poem — The pizza place upstreet made another pie just for me. Same ingredients, same taste the ninja turtles assured decades ago I could trust, and I do. Jet’s never judged for geeking out, losing sleep scrolling one Wiki after the next, did you know facts about digital monsters, punk bands and…

It’s hard building relationships on the spectrum. We have stronger needs for consistency and routine than non-autistic people, and more extreme reactions when these needs are violated. We are also often unable to understand oblique, nuanced, or subtle forms of communication. This leaves us missing important cues and missing out…