On many nights, I sleep with a knife in my hand
It makes me feel like I have some power over my life
That if someone does break in here
At least I can wound them a little
Geeat article, Kevin. But what is your personal opinion?
Do you believe BPD is an expression of complex PTSD, as Pete Walker suggests in his book on CPTSD ?
What about those who aren’t in the group of “70% of BPD sufferers have experienced some form of childhood trauma” ? Do you think they have…
Your comment makes me think this will be safe to read. I’ve been so constantly triggered by everything in this awfulness that masquerades as an election. My hypervigilance is again at the level it was when I left the city of my stalkers and rapists behind.
And all these white folk coming late to the party. Sigh. But thank you. I think I can finally read it
Recently, I have begun to notice a tendency to dissociate. My eyes glaze over, I zone out, I realise I haven’t been listening to a word. Or I read voraciously, transporting myself elsewhere, refusing to be present for hours and days and weeks at a time. Or my heart begins to pound, my mouth goes bone dry, the…
Hi. Thanks for explaining your experience. I realize that dark beings can mean both human and not, but I question the likelihood that there are not dark humans present right now. In my experience, human predators actively look for trauma sufferers to revictimize. Don’t be too hard on yourself for suspecting people. It could save your life.
Also, people who say there’s no such thing as normal to people who are in the top 12% of abnormal are so self-righteous. In fact, they’re denying the lived experience of people they claim they’re trying to help.
I despise the words, “Don’t be a victim!” Like I can go back in time and change what somebody else did to me. It also assumes that if I have told my audience about one event, I must have told everything about my life, and I couldn’t possibly have various coping and learning methods if…