You should have been one today.
We should have been celebrating your birthday with lots of fun today, pictures to attest to your one year on earth, prayers for more fun-filled years on earth.
I see you, in the kitchen, soapy suds trailing up your fragile arms as you absent-mindedly swirl a golden sponge across the surface of your mother’s favorite china. Your eyes are unfocused, as they dance around the playground outside the window. You see the swing swaying ever so slightly…
I lost a child at age 20 in 2008 in an atv accident. My baby boy. In 2014 I lost my daughter at age 32. She was physically handicapped but her death was unexpected and sudden. You are right, life will never be the same. I am just going through the motions. I wish you ease of getting through this life. It will never be the same. Life as you know it doesn’t exist. You will find a way to cope with it.
Reading this I believe I finally have the courage to write about my daughter’s death. Not just passing comments on the anniversary of her death or her birthday, but the full story. And how hard it is not to blame myself. And to believe that it was her time and nothing I could’ve done would have changed that. And how hard it was to forgive the people involved. I’m still not ready but I’m working on it…..