Hypomania

I wish I knew how to get along in this life, to struggle a little less, to smile a little more, to find the comfort I see some people enjoying more often than not. That’s not to say I don’t find it for small chunks of time. I do. Maybe…

Perhaps reading about my day will stir your apathy and transmute it into something more useful. Tedium and boredom is a little death for people like us. I love that fact about you, where info like the little details about my life stick so well. Given my moods and madness…

Some people are simple I don’t mean that in a negative way simple elegance I envy them. I am jolted awake keeping my heart wild past 3am I wish to be boring I wish when I laid my head down simple thoughts came out but I am memorizing the heat of the moment…

I was chatting online with a friend the other day and asked how she was doing. Knowing that we both suffered from depression and complicated lives, I didn’t expect a throwaway answer like “fine.” What she said was, “better than average.” She didn’t have time to say more because she…

more time to do stuff! — I’m in the beginning stages of bipolar hypomania. This is the “fun” phase of mania when you are feeling great, and feel like you can do anything and everything. I generally sleep very little in this phase. A few hours a day, and usually broken up into short naps. My…

life feels so much better — My moods don’t generally reflect my circumstances. I am bipolar, and my moods go up and down when they want, and usually last for months. This depression lasted much longer than usual, and its grip has waned dramatically. I almost never have a “normal” period in between depression and hypomania/mania…

I’m on a manic episode now and I’ll tell you about what happened when I was high. I took my medication, but in reality, I didn’t really take it. I mean I consumed it, but I skipped it sometimes. The side effects really affected me. But I think it helps…

I lie here, I should be better, I think. It’s been too long, I’ve used up all my patience, All my energy on filling time, Now it stretches outward before me. . I think of all the shoulds, I should do this, I should be that, They float by empty in my brain, Nowhere to lodge or fester, Unwanted, unwelcome. . I don’t know how I get by this next stage, General apathy my main emotion, Insatiable feelings fuelling my restlessness,