Recovery

Dead at 44 from Cirrhosis That’s awfully young, isn’t it? There’s no good age to die from alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver, of course. It takes a lot of drinking to do it by the age of 44. Beer. Uncle Red drank only beer. I was pretty young when my…

The road to betrayal. Storms of redemption. Twisting Anger of pain. Life of vanity! Rarely fair! Ignoring the truth! While running away from what I’ve done. Chasing the thrill. That white lady was a path of pure ecstasy. Leading to the Crystal Ice Queen. Land of the shards. Speed country…

Be about your business because anything can and will trigger you to use. Your addiction was selfish and now, make your recovery selfish too. You become a miserable addict when you’re not working on yourself in recovery. We have the same disease Tim or anyone with a copious amount of…

I never prioritized my physical and mental needs while drinking. I thought that self-care was staying at home and drinking boxed wine and watching Friends reruns in the dark and passing out early, rather than my typical drinking at the bar with others until the wee hours. …

How the term “Vehicular Homicide” got my attention Writing this piece is difficult because it’s bringing up feelings of great fear as I remember being out of control, and the potential consequences of that. My idea was to “party.” I was mostly a happy-go-lucky, let’s get fucked up and play…

but is every bit as powerful — Today’s topic, denial, woke me up at 4:30 AM yesterday. No, really. I have been working my way through dealing with a significant loss for over 6 months, now. My wife’s passing rocked me to the core! I believed that I was finally through the process but had a lingering…

Unchallenged conviction produces rigidity, which causes regression, but ambiguity unlocks discovery, complexity, and growth. The first result of accepting life in addiction gives us the power to survive, even in extreme despair. …