Reflections On Identity

The other day I remembered asking myself this question. “Hmm,” I said, “who am I now, and why?” Closing my eyes, I noticed some things surrounding my likes, loves, dislikes, and hates changed. “Well, I know I still hate roaches during the summer, dirty feet, and sizeable crowds.” My mind…

Unvoiced envy and longings — Decades ago, when following directions meant reading a map and making a wrong turn could result in extra hours of driving, I drove six hours to visit a friend who lived two hours away. I had completely cleared the state she lived in before realizing my error; when I finally…

You hear it right But you read it wrong. Being you wasn't ever a confine, Being you was an out-of-tune song. Being you behind a closed door, with all pain and no power to steal, Being you is what matters, Being you is the big deal. Like a song that meanders, Through the emotional words, with music that's wandered off, in a melody of the absurds. But if you still choose to sing it, unabashed from your window, loud and proud. Thats when you matter to yourself, And for once, to be heard, You don't have to shout.

Acclimating to my new job, schedule, sense of purpose — After two decades as a stay-home mom, I recently started working full-time outside my home again. Well, not really outside my home. The job is remote so I’m actually home more than ever, but still — it’s a paying job and I spend most of my day on the computer…

When the crises ends and “normal” life resumes — Divorce, moving, and death of a close relative are generally considered to be amongst the greatest stressors in life. I’ve experienced them all in the past few years and am here to verify that they do indeed deserve top billing. I’m grateful not to be able to complete the list…

I am a coward! Afraid of failure and the self-judgment that comes with it. I stick with the familiar, and master new skills that do not feel new. I sometimes run away from the things that really challenge me. My husband says I’m too hard on myself. Because cowards don’t…

Moments of quiet reflection. I went off for a while. I took a break just to dig deep into my intuitions. To tap into my potential. My most authentic self. Trynna uncover what’s hidden beneath. I’m 'in the zone’. No, not what you think. Being in the zone to me…

I carry the weight of the secrets kept from me — Having recently unearthed two massive, life-changing secrets that directly impacted me, I spend a great deal of time contemplating the life I lived before I knew versus the life I live now, after. For every step forward, I take a half-step back. We can never go back to exactly where…