It is a re-affirmation, blind trust, faith related post. I was down, maybe I lift my self up a little and release frustration here.
It has been 3 years since I started to learn to code on Udemy. I have used a lot of twitter since then. Before that, facebook was my go to place to get hooked. I have also written a lot of blogs — I lost the count.
Today I was trying to make my weekly newsletter basic setup. My failures flashed back and I lost track of time. Misery took over me. And now, I am sitting in a clothing brand shop sofa — feeling worst. If the world can build these stores, why can’t I.
This is not the first time — feelings of failure over ran me. It has happened in the past and I always channeled my anger into a product.
If you are finding similar feelings of failure, misery and hopelessness. Immediately get into action — that you save yourself from drowning.
- Write down your feelings
- Look back and measure the distance you have travelled
- Get out and stop doing everything you were doing
1 — Write down your feelings
Most great written scripts are, feelings expressed in its purity. Best songs are, anger channeled into words. Best dances are, emotions translated into movement. Best art works are, worst losses painted on paper.
So — it is ok to fail and express yourself into words. Express the bads you are experiencing today. Bring your wrench, thirst and agony into action.
For me, the best action, closest to practicality, is this journal that I write everyday. If I could give you an advise, it is
Start releasing your frustration in your blogs.
Slowly you will realize you will be craving for agony that you manage to write good.
Good art is good emotions.
2 — Look back and see how far you have travelled
In the noise around us. Sitting under more lights and big fanoos you feel miserable. When your journey is somewhat similar to this brand’s journey — that is pinching you in your ears, it becomes difficult to handle losses. Envy over runs us.
I say, these mega successes around you, are noise to you. All brands grow from small steps of trusting your instincts. And all brands that took the easier path, are bound to hit their bottom.
You have travelled a lot. 3 years back, you couldn’t sit in peace, listen classic, pat yourself and stand on your own feet. 10 years back you were spending the time to somehow let it pass without bothering you. 20 years back you were stuck in a small town and you were a punching bag for your relatives every day you returned from school.
Life was miserable and today you ate, laughed, focused and lived good.
It is not anybody’s greatness but yours own. You managed to survive the chaos of your life and still sail just fine.
If today is rough, it does not mean you did not run fast enough. It means, you needed some rough to keep you afloat. It is here to teach you something new today. It will benefit you tomorrow. And it will grow you into a stronger being.
3 — Now, get out and stop doing everything you were doing
I am sitting in Khaadi, Noor Jehan songs in the background and people walking, opting and paying for their choices.
In 30 minutes — nearly everything has turned around.
Had it been the same dull day inside my 2 room apartment, it would have been another wasted day.
Honestly, if pushing yourself into action does not help. Or if you are finding it hard to motivate yourself to keep walking straight — get out and change your surroundings.
Changing your state, gives your views new perspectives.
Conclusion
Keep things simple in your life. Do not complicate simple stories into complicated words. Do not portray yourself bigger than what you are. Keep all things organic, real and straight. If you are a boring person to talk to, be the worst boring you can be. People will find your lousy talks fun.
Take small actions that reflect the real you. Failures, losses, sadness and ugliness is everybody’s life. If you show these early, if you lift curtain before everybody else, you will manage to spread courage before everybody else.
Do humble stuff upfront. Look your problem in its face and show your kind of anger. Speak less but when spoken, speak like your urge is to speak. Do not act logical, sane and normal. Because normal is fake. But insane is childish, happy and real.
