I am done with people screaming “consistency is the key”, “goal is an answer to my prayers” and “I need to get out of my 9 to 5 work routine”. None are humble, know, what I am going through.
We humans, need nothing in here. We have enough health, clothes and money in our pockets. We do not need a mission. We do not need a goal. We do not need more. To be honest, we have enough.
What really do we need?
We need Peace, calmness, less noise and honest ears. We, novice, people do not need opportunities and we do not want to feel like we are your product. We need you to look at us like heart felt humans.
Give us space, if you can not give us anything else. Just let us walk, with our headphones on, on long straight walkways. Let us get lost in our own dreams and motions and moments of flow.
Let us live, like humans, like novice, like mission-less and aimless kid.
What makes me happy?
The living in the moment gives me chills. Right now, in this part, the indie hacker podcast in my ears and the air touching me — is all I need to be happy. It is good. And it is enough.
The one thing that makes me feel great, is able to know there is more and in the whole wide world, none have the answer to it. Even those on TV shows and great scholars in Youtube, does not know, what is out there. The realization of everybody-is-faking-it keeps me afloat.
I know life has fun and it is not open to me yet. I know, the charisma, the grace and sincerity is out there — but not open to me yet. I know, things are great, ahead, around the corner, not yet open to me.
I feel chilled, haste-full and hurried, to move my arm forward and get a hold of it. I just can’t hold myself shorter, smaller or weaker and miss out the fun this life has to offers me.
I just can’t take No for an answer
I know it is tough, to speak to people while they do not want to listen. I know, my blogs are weak and not fun. I know my tweets are rubbing right up at your face. I know, my projects are weak and I know these are nothing but failures.
But, I do not know how to stop. I just can’t take No, for an answer. I tell myself nothing is fixed, and I do not show up to really fix it. But, I do not know anything else — other than keeping my head low, hope high and grip tight.
Conclusion
The country I am from, Pakistan, is good. Fertile land. Humble people. Sufficient water. Snow in the north and oil in the south.
It is not heading like I want it to move forward. It is not making my life easier yet. It doesn’t promote healthy discussions, productive hours, sober community gatherings and good-enough welfare organisations. My country is not yet Fixed. My home, your home, everybody’s home is not fixed.
Roads broken, poverty hit, head scratching parents and kids lost on tinder — is not the way, I dream of our word.
I am sorry, for being abusive, pointy and blunt at times, but I can’t stop, until, I unite all of our people who want to talk good, live good and feel good.
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