Unicorn Farts: Not All Sunshine and Rainbows: PYL In-Flight: Feb 8, 2022
Welcome Back My Perfectly Aligned Passengers:
I’ve had a weekly ritual of planning my week, recapping my annual goal progress, and summarizing my wins for the week. I use my CRM (Highrise), my Priori planner, and my Silk & Sonder planner. It’s a combo of digital and paper which suits me just fine.
This year, Zeke and I came up with a set of goals for us, and my once peaceful Sunday morning is now a little bit crunchy. And I don’t quite know why.
Maybe I don’t like being accountable to someone else.
We created the goals together at the end of December and I added them to Highrise as Cases so we could track our progress and actions every week. Same as what I do for myself every year. Our goal topics include:
- Travel and adventure
- Health and wellness
- Fun, sexy, trusting relationship with good communication
- Supporting our kids as they increase their self sufficiency
- Community, friendship, relationships
- Financial control
- House and household maintenance (including lots of organizing and purging!)
There are more details behind each of these that we expand on and track each week. Zeke doesn’t feel any discomfort as we go through each of them, one by one.
This is a great way to touch base on what’s going on, what we’ve done, what we need to do, and remind ourselves of the good progress we’ve made each week.
We don’t argue and only have some minor disagreements that we quickly talk through. We are almost 100% aligned. So why is this so uncomfortable for me?
I experience a similar discomfort when I prep with my project manager Lisa before our weekly client team meetings. She asks about some of the tasks, the timing, and what meetings we need for the week. Sometimes I get difficult and push back when in reality, she’s trying to do her job and there’s no reason for me to have any sort of negative reaction.
It seems that I’d grown accustomed to being in control and dictating the plan and expectations.
I imagine that this comes from a place of fear; that someone might find what I am doing lacking. That I won’t measure up. Ugh.
I am pretty sure I know where this comes from and plan on addressing it this year, starting right now. (If you guessed Daddy issues, you would be spot on!)
And that’s where I will leave you today. Over-caffeinated and surging with the adrenaline that comes from discovering something important about oneself. And knowing that I can do something about it.
Hopefully the bike ride home from Verve in Palo Alto will burn off both so I can peacefully deal with all that comes my way this afternoon. With lots of deep, cleansing breaths.
I am enough.
I am good at what I do.
I am human. Imperfectly so.
May you find peace, acceptance, and love today as you navigate being human.
With much love and gratitude,
P.S. Take the controls and be the pilot in your own life. It’s a beautiful day to fly, and you are cleared for takeoff.
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