This one life
Have you ever thought how hard it is to untangle your mind into words, into a well-expressed writing? If anyone is thinking who is going to be the judge on whether it is well-expressed or not, it’s going to be myself. I write for the days, months & years later me, so it is important that she can understand what is conveyed in the writing which I want her to recall and feel. I want her to remember that certain stories or memories have value.
Today, putting aside the mind set of it needs to be well written, I am writing, trying to untangle the mind as my fingers find its place on the right letters on the keyboard. It is going to be as raw as it could, but I wish she could still understand the present me.
To untangle my mind, one step at a time.
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I am currently living my first life, but aren’t we all?
It is fascinating- how fast time flies. It makes me wonder, how did I change over the past years? Did I change for the better? Did I do my best?
Having myself to wonder such questions, I realised how valuable it would be if I can have my own life archive. Though it is not intended to act like an archive, walking through my story-lane on Twitter and Instagram did work like one. I could still recall and feel most of the stories and memories I have shared, many of them bring back butterflies in my stomach and some of them still pierce through my heart.
It also brought me the answers to my questions.
I did change for the better. I did my best.
I did it all, one step at a time.
However, I am still changing and I am trying to do my best.
To better understand my journey in the process of change and becoming a better self, I have been keeping a monthly journal since beginning of the year. I have been writing down my small celebrations of life, learnings, and goals for the following month including that one quote, sayings or scripture for me to put into exercise.
By keeping my journey into something I can always open and revisit, it allows me to catch my breath and stay grounded before I begin again.
This is the one life we’re given.
If we don’t make the best out of it- Who would?
It’s the middle of the year and here’s what you, I need to remember:
Life is much bigger than you and what is seen, but how it feels in-between.
Look up, lift your eyes to Him and let your life begins.
