Grief Looks Like….
Listening to the same song 467 time in a row
Eating 2 times a day because you know your friends will ask you if you have eaten
Being so busy and not thinking until your body gives out and you have to stop
Drinking coffee, and smoking 4 times your normal amount just to keep you calm and going
Most of your clothes not fitting right because your body can’t regulate weight
Bottles upon bottles of pills in your bag so you don’t loose your mind
Falling asleep in weird places because you haven’t slept more than a few hours a night
Memories hitting you at random and being triggered by random things
Being more sensitive or moody
Crying in public or not being able to cry at all
Thinking about how different the future will be and getting angry
What ifs and wishes
Sitting still and semi comatose with no words, just staring because the pain is too much to handle
Wondering if you are loosing your family one by one because you are cursed
Repeating yourself over and over again because you can’t remember what you have said
Making plans then leaving early because you are too drained to stay
Making list after list to follow because it’s the only way that you continue to function