I Didn’t Need LSD — I Needed a New Perspective

Jess Tam
Jess Tam
Nov 21 · 5 min read
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I took a class at my university in Psychadelic Rock class. Every lecture left me in awe, and I ended that class with a solid A-plus and a percentage of 120%. What caught my interest was the use of LSD — Lysergic acid diethylamide.

Our professor invited a neuroscientist to discuss psychedelics’ background and studies. Her lecture shocked me with curiosity. Though this wasn’t my professor’s intention, I felt a sudden drive to try it for myself.

During this time, I was feeling very depressed and disconnected from myself. I was transitioning into a new life of independence, I didn’t have many friends, and I had no sense of direction in my life. Finding myself lost within the abyss of college life.

So, I thought that hopping on my own white bicycle trip to enter a new realm was what I needed.

After my long 8-hour trip, I not only experienced the ecstasy of being and the enlightening hallucinogenic effects of LSD. But also insightful lessons that I’ll carry with me for a lifetime.

Keep aiming to try something new.

“All dreams spin-out from the same web… Man did not weave the web of life — he is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself.” — Chief Seattle, a Suquamish and Duwamish chief, 1854

What I learned was not that I needed to take LSD to cure my depression. All I needed was a new perspective (although LSD did help me realize this in my case).

LSD sure got me out of my slump and opened up a whole new world.

I opened up my awareness more to trying out mediation and looking towards ways to get to the root of my depression. I joined clubs. I made an effort to reach out to more people in my classes. I volunteered at my favorite museums.

Ultimately, I got out of my comfort zone.

What I had made me realized during my trip was the interconnectedness between all. I didn’t feel so alone anymore. I was in a world, not just people, but with nature and the whole cosmos within myself (and within you as well).

When you realize the interconnection between you and all creations, you can move through life with love, strength, and flexibility.

That idea helped comfort me when trying new things and talking to new people.

Though these activities and people were new, in some way, we are interconnected in the grand scheme of the universe.

Sometimes things don’t fit — there are some people you won’t get along with or some activities you find you enjoy doing.

But that is part of life. That is just a re-direction letting you know what you do not enjoy to move towards the things more meant for you.

Living in fear is actually worse than experiencing failure itself.

“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.” — Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

What I learned that before embarking on this trip, I was scared. But, I am always scared.

I was causing this suffering for myself because I feared doing new things and meeting new people. After all, I wasn’t good enough.

I was so attached to this idea that failure was permanent, which lead me to this fear of even trying in the first place.

What I experienced that life was one with the good and the bad. The bad let you distinguish the good and vice versa.

Failing at something is merely a sign that you need to do something different.

Fearing of doing something means that you are actually so passionate about it. Because you deeply desire for it to work out in the end.

In the middle of my trip, I realized that I was having so much fun because this is the most present I have ever been to. I wasn’t thinking about mistakes and what I had in the past. Nor was I thinking about the uncertainty of the future.

I was having fun and felt free because I focused on what was happening here and now.

I was watching the sand dance in paisley patterns. I appreciated the movement of the waves, with its green and purple aura. I was watching the people wiggle and wattle by. I was in awe of the happenings in the present moments.

Everything is temporary. The only permanence is change.

The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance. — Alan Watts

Everything on this earth holds impermanence. The paradox is the only permanence is change.

Emotions and feelings are temporary. Moments are temporary. People are temporary.

Which is why we need to flow with the universe.

That is the beauty of life. To revel in it, dance with it, and enjoy it while it’s here. Life is not meant to always live in one state. It is meant to feel its entirety as a whole.

I experienced waves of happiness and sadness, simultaneous to the rise and fall of the ocean’s waves.

I saw a child scream in anger because he tripped in the sand and then cuddled his mother in a sense of comfort and calmness. Then he got back up and started running again, screaming with pure joy.

I saw the seagulls fight over food, then fly away onto their next find.

Problems, sadness, anger, and struggle won’t last forever. They will turn into moments of lessons and insight. As will moments of happiness, ecstasy, and love will turn into fond memories not meant to be stuck in, but as a remembrance of life’s simplicities.

Final thoughts

You do not need to take LSD to help you get through something, as I did. My overall message to you is to change your perspective when you feel yourself in a moment of stuckness.

I haven’t relied on micro-dosing LSD or retaking it. From that trip, I realized a lot of things. I’m not implying that completely cured me. I still have low days. Yet, with these new lessons that I’ve learned, I can handle these low days in more positive ways.

So, get out of your comfort zone and try something new because your stuckness could be a moment of fear that you feel attached to.

Detach yourself from the notion of permanence and dance to the beat of the ever-changing moments that life offers you.

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Jess Tam

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Jess Tam

Writing through life, drunk on books, and committed to learning, unlearning, and relearning.

The Ascent

A community of storytellers documenting the journey to happiness & fulfillment. Join 138,000+ others making the climb on one of the fastest-growing pubs on Medium.

Jess Tam

Written by

Jess Tam

Writing through life, drunk on books, and committed to learning, unlearning, and relearning.

The Ascent

A community of storytellers documenting the journey to happiness & fulfillment. Join 138,000+ others making the climb on one of the fastest-growing pubs on Medium.

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