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Read This When You Feel Small

Walking in the unfamiliar streets of South Boston.

Lately, I feel as if all of the odds are stacked against me. I am a student journalist who works in HR — and I’m trying to get out of it. There are ten plus applications floating around the universe with my name on them and no one has gotten back to me. I feel as if all hope has been lost.

The people who matter to me most (my family) are unsupportive, pushing and pulling me into different directions to what they want, not keeping in mind what I want. I find myself starting to believe what others say versus listening to my own judgment.

After sulking for a few days, digging myself further and further into writer’s block, I asked myself, “Why is this happening? Is there a particular reason why I feel how I feel? If so, is there anything I can do to change my behavior?”

For myself, nine times out of ten, I am able to steer my mindset into a different direction by indulging in new books (fiction or self development), reconnecting with close friends, or even having meaningful conversations with my significant other about our goals and aspirations.

Here is a list of things that help me when I feel myself starting to feel small, and hopefully will jumpstart you into feeling inspired again. :)

Books

  • Steal Like an Artist, Austin Kleon

This book was gifted to me by my boyfriend when he found out I was going through a rough patch in my writing. Time and time again, I have referenced this book to make me feel a bit better about gaining inspiration from other artists and writers alike. To start doing instead of dreaming of doing.

  • The Art of Living, Thich Nhat Hanh

I find myself often disconnecting from the world, taking advantage of the time being spent on Earth and going through a slight bit of anxiety when it comes to death. Death is something that isn’t often talked about, and it is usually seen as a super negative thing. Because of this, I haven’t been living in the now, and more or less living in the future, creating the mindset that “I should be doing all of this before I die” instead of “Let’s have fun and enjoy this now while we’re still here.”

Social

  • Reconnecting + Creating new connections

Having a one track mind is incredibly easy, but also a very negative thing to do. My uncle from California visited very recently after not connecting for over five years. A lot of the concerns that I had diminished, and I feel prompted to connect with old family members again.

Going out with my significant other has also helped. Being taken out of my comfort zone and discovering something that is so close but so unfamiliar helps put my mind into perspective. Seeing and discovering new surroundings inspires me to do more — write more, take more photos, and create more memories.

I never would have thought to have been the type to start creating connections and essentially, network, but I realized that another reason why I felt so small was because I didn’t have any friends within my niche. Going out of my way to connect with people that I don’t even know helped me realize — I’m not alone within all of this.

Personal

  • Reflecting

I have a reflection section within my bullet journal, and I always try to make a conscious effort to reflect on my day, week, or month. I never feel any pressure to reflect on myself on a daily basis. Some months I’ll reflect every few days, some months I’ll only reflect on my actions twice — it all just depends on how I’m feeling. It’s helpful to be able to write down all of my emotions without feeling the need to verbalize them to another person. Reflecting upon myself has given me the opportunity to take the positives out of all of the negative things that have happened to me.

  • Skincare

I have always been uncomfortable in my own skin, but finding a perfect skincare regimen has helped me in more ways than I could imagine. Taking some time out of my nights to just massage all of my skincare products into my skin while connecting with my significant other helps me wind down, and helps me get a better night’s rest.

In terms of the morning hours, my skincare routine and my makeup routine help boost my emotions and jumpstarts me for whatever life has to give me.

I hope this gave you a bit of insight on what I like to do when I’m feeling small and when I feel as if I start to disconnect from the world.

If you’re interested in seeing any of my work or even to just connect, here are some links to get you started!

Instagram | Portfolio | Twitter

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Janjira Sun

Janjira Sun

copywriting @ contra, avid rice eater + newfound mapo tofu fiend. @/janjirasun everywhere.