When The Struggle Is Real
What can we do to get past the dark phases when we are on our revolutionary journeys of search and change.
You have borrowed time and have been using up your savings to find that career, work or lifestyle that you think you want.
You try freelancing, you do creative work, you volunteer, you look for a school with a degree that you think will give you the breakthrough, you travel as much as you can to give you new ideas and perspectives and meet new people with aspirations as yours.
You do this for months with no real tangible changes and moves you had envisioned. You still don’t have an income. The new career path of your dreams is not easy to get into without spending big dollars on another degree. Creative work has not gained attention or viewership, let alone any income. You are stuck in places opposite to your dream homes.
It is obvious that many in-between moments will be restless and full of anxiety and fear. But more dangerous is a phase when you will lose your ability to keep going with no inspiration and motivation to work with and all creative energy gone to hell.
These will be the days you will mostly not be able to get out of bed and get on many paths of self-destruction. It might include day drinking, no sleeping or hours and hours of bedtime, no physical exercise, no meditative moments, junk reading and insecurities through the roof eventually leading to panic attacks.
This article doesn’t claim any secrets of getting out of this rut since it has all been a work in difficult progress for me. The struggle is real but few things helped me somewhat move away from this dark phase.
My first real struggle in this dark phase has been to lose the ability to do any creative work and not being able to meditate. No chakras are open I can tell you that. Everything seems blocked.
Many days passed by with this ‘block’. I actually gave it up and just slept through the days.
And the little bit of relief came in with the post full moon swim ritual when I decided I am just going to vow to thrive as much as I can in planes of higher consciousness, one rejecting fears and doubts and one breathing in love and faith. I felt the next day a bit of a change with a few minutes of meditation power back and a little bit of writing.
Our thoughts do change our reality. It might not solve immediately the practical issues in hands but it helps us continue to go on with our goals and facilitate a healthy physical and mental set up while we do that.
Now when I wake up I start my day with the thoughts and intentions that this is going to be a productive day. I might not get immediately that dream job or sustainable income or breakthrough in my creative journey, but I am on that path towards my goals with compassion and belief for self. I remind myself to feel the gratitude for this opportunity in hand that not many get to pursue.
Sword of time is always on us. I have struggled with this constant pressure goes without saying; the ever-present feeling of that I am losing time and also money, and I need to figure out something very soon. This is that very darkest within the dark phase with no real solutions.
Only a few things that have possibly helped are to continue with positive affirmations that the breakthrough is near, continuing to take risks and be prepared for any magnitude of changes, and really having faith in myself that I will work something out no matter how much things go south.
I do have a strong support system in community, friends, and family but in spite of that this is not much others can help with unless I create a productive mindset for myself and nurture personal strength and courage.
Some things I remind myself to continue to walk on and not give up my revolutionary road:
It is ok to fail any number of times
Thoughts, affirmations, and intentions are very important
Compassion, faith, and love are the saviors, starting from first being projected towards Self
Pledge and moment to moment commitment to thrive in planes of higher consciousness is a must
It is ok to have days of absolute nothingness
When the fire is back, it is important to tap into the energy and get in the flow
It is ok to ask for help
It is crucial to take risks and be ready for changes
It is crucial to stay ambitious to make myself and the world a better place
It is absolutely mandatory to dream and follow the moon