If only you understood
All My Irrational Fears~
Are because of you
I cannot imagine what it must be like
for you
to be living like me
living in fear of all my irrational fears
Just today
I had my well planned departure
not to be longer than an hour
Now long passed hours
I’m still here, struggling to get away
I can feel my irrational decay
with each additional delay
My search for perfection
is fueled by the need to do one last thing
perfecting just so
cleaning
packing
stacking
as my nightmare comes alive
always the same recurring
being late for a final exam
having not studied not even been to classes
My irrational fears are the result of years
of being corrected
never being just accepted
After every presentation, never do I get
thank you, that is wonderful
Always I get
“That is ok!”
BUT!
WHAT ABOUT THIS WAY!”
Upon showing my new excitement
on arriving at this point yet
never do I expect
“that’s great!”
Full STOP!
AGAIN!
I get
“Maybe you should have tried this
INSTEAD!”
So
now in my head
lives all my ideas
There also now becoming
the place where my passion
goes to bed
and
me
Well I just pretend to be dead
no longer living in fear
of all my irrational fears
Always on time now that I’m having
my conversations in my head
@Anthony2023mdh30Vibes
