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What I’m Doing After Being Rejected By Two Therapists
trying to cope by writing
First, even though my mind tells me that I was rejected my therapist, it also positively self-talks to correct that I probably wasn’t rejected, but that there was a very real reason these people had to make this choice, and while I want to be able to hold that maybe me and my characteristics can be a factor in it (and maybe I’m open to feedback and change, that’s literally why I’m going to therapy) and maybe it’s external, uncontrollable factors — this anxiety thought is so long I’ve long lost the exact grammar of it. Thanks for reading til the end of this single entity of a sentence.
The first one cancelled on me one hour before my session and then proceeded to cancel all of the availability she had for the one day I had available for therapy. I’d like to think that there was an emergency for the cancellation, and maybe some good news to the availability (e.g., maybe finding a job/thing that takes up that scheduling slot that’s important to her). I also can’t help but be disappointed that I finally found someone I liked and felt like a good match, and logistics came into the way, and so last minute.
The second one had an initial call with me, and although I was a bit skeptical at first (I got some cookie cutter answers about cultural competency), I did wonder…
