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Life is getting better, and I’m not ready for it

This year’s numerous struggles left me unprepared for a better life ahead

chel writes
the Challenged
2 min readDec 13, 2023

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I’ve faced a multitude of struggles this year — mentally, financially, and physically, quite literally.

I’m grateful for my stable job, but oh, it can be a headache sometimes. Especially dealing with a recent issue in the company causing substantial losses. Working tirelessly with my team to fix it marks the beginning of this year’s challenges.

I started therapy and seeing a doctor due to the situation. The company’s financial loss affected my paycheck, forcing extreme budgeting. I even often eat once every one or two days to save money. I’m also too tired for exercise and it only worsens my physical health over months.

That was months ago. Life’s improved — I’ve received the long-awaited paychecks, feeling mentally, physically, and financially healthier. I started to feel excited about new opportunities that might open a new, positive chapter in my life.

But somehow, I also feel unprepared, or perhaps unworthy, to face it. After months of struggling and praying to be free from it all, now that I’ve overcome those challenges and am about to start anew, I feel a strange discomfort. Could it be that I’ve grown accustomed to my struggles and…

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chel writes
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write articles and personal thoughts. publish drafts regularly. sometimes in english or indonesian :)

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