growing pains
God am I tired…
No amount of sleep
Can energize me
For the unknown that I seek
For the mud that I trudge
For to the ugliness
That crowds the streets
But I am tired…
Because the pain means I’m growing
And though it might not be showing
I am hurdling obstacles
and crushing impossible
and pushing myself to the brink
it’s my instinct
But I am still really tired…
From all the noise
And all the lights
And the thoughts that keep me up at night
And the ones that play
in my head all day
I’m exhausted…
from entertaining
And parading
And masquerading
Around like the work is easy
Because it not;
It’s hard and it’s draining
But I keep from complaining
Because every word from my mouth
Reminds me what I’m facing
I’m fading
And I start contemplating
Whether it’s all for nothing
Or I’m just anticipating
this life I’m creating
Is it worth all the troubles
I’ve been sustaining?
And I’m tired…
And I’d really just like
To stop living in waiting
And rise with the world
Instead of sitting debating
So I lay awake…
Because make no mistake
The world keeps spinning
And whether I’m frowning
or grinning
I am winning
Because no amount of wishing
Can stop me from finishing
Because even my tired eyes
Can see the finish line
No one can stop me from kicking
And swimming
It’s addicting…
And I’m sure it’s tiring
Watching
Admiring
When you find nothing inspiring
so please stop your chatter
while we’re climbing the ladder
because none of it matters
the imitation and hot air —
couldn’t be flatter
But I still can’t sleep
Afraid the world is clawing at my feet
Afraid to be stuck
Afraid to be weak
and I’m winded and out of breath
from running after happiness
when i really just need to take a moment
to be proud
to be grateful
and be at peace.
thank you for your time , — brittany
