Just Keep Swimming
From the start of this year I have been slowly accustoming myself to a better view of Life. To eradicate the cultural/social programming that had started to bother me in unimaginable ways. A copious amount of prejudices slowly but sternly gathered over twenty six years are on their way into an excruciating incinerator. I put it this way because that is how intensely I feel about them. If thoughts are things and if these things are to have feelings then by all means let them suffer in the same intensity as their existence agonizes me.
I feel so strongly about them because they have been crippling me for a considerable amount of time. Ignoring them and hiding the dust under the rug wasn’t enough, they needed to be identified, collected, and disposed off in an effective manner. And more importantly it was crucial to fill that void with an equally convincing if not more potent ‘programming’.
It is not an easy task to chop and change a mindset in a matter of few days, it takes savage amount of effort and time, time is the most precious catalyst there is, especially in regards to this problem.
In the beginning every inch of your being protests against change, you think it is unnecessary and that your decision is dumb. I mean, who does that, how many people around you go about exchanging one mindset for another? How are you going to explain all the changes you are making in order to instill a new way perspective. You spend hours and days doing things that is so different than the past years and you yourself begin to question your sanity. People around you seem perfectly happy the way they have always been, why can’t I be satisfied with what I have become? Who am I to find fault in the ways that has been for so long? So many questions.
Personal development is a very demanding job. The toughest part being convincing yourself to do it, to believe that you are worth it and that it will make a world of difference. Once you tackle that, everything else automatically falls into place. You would need to push yourself now and then, but it would be easier now. And as you progress your way your days begin to get more interesting. You start seeing things differently, solving problems more effectively and dealing with people more progressively.
The first step will take you so far, but that is not the end. You have to put one foot ahead of the other and keep moving, else you’re easily pulled back into your old unworthy habits. Go so far that it is hard to return, and enjoy the journey as it slowly unfolds.
As Dory in ‘Finding Nemo’ says: Just Keep Swimming…
“ They were all — herself included — cowards when the moment came to change their fate” -The Devil and Miss Prym (Paulo Coelho)
