What I Do Not to Be Fat

Lisa Shanahan
Dec 4, 2016 · 6 min read
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I have a palpable fear of being fat that began when I gained the “Freshman 15” at Vanderbilt. None of my clothes fit when I came home from school that Christmas. My parents could not contain their shock, and I felt mortified.

“Mortify” meaning I was so upset that I felt disgust in my body, felt wounded, felt that my body perhaps died, like the French word, mort. Ugh. It’s really hard for me to think about that time, but…