Waking to Pablo Neruda Pumping My Chest

Coil Poetry
Mar 12, 2019 · 2 min read

Poem by Lindsey Thäden


am possessed, and detest
this madness by which
I am obsessed. Possession
is nearer hatred but rather
appreciation is. The point:
I’ll never kill one single, solitary
part of myself. Was it Atticus
who said Love her, but leave her wild?

. every buzzing nerve fiber .
. every pinprick sensation .

I won’t balance. I won’t let anyone
tie a tightrope between the Twin Towers
and expect me to perform. I’ll cut that
motherfucker down and fly off a high-
rise like some chill superhero. It’s
blasphemous to mention T. S. Eliot
was the death of poetry, and I hate
him for it. But how near is love to hate?
Simultaneously on Facebook I subtly
infer a jellyfish looks like a Georgia
O’Keeffe painting, which means it looks like
a vagina. Like Eliot
I wrote the most powerful poem ever
written & read it aloud to my lover, who
read himself into the poem. I left
a teakettle to scream. I can say

. whatever I want . I can feel
. whatever I want . I can write
. whatever I want .
. whatever I want .
. whatever I want .
. whatever I want .

LINDSEY THÄDEN is the winner of the City of New York’s 2016 #PoetweetNYC contest, a regular poet contributor at Vending Machine Press and The Ekphrastic Review, and exhibited visual artist. Her poetry has appeared (or is forthcoming) in the Philadelphia-based Apeiron Review, Buddy: A Lit Zine, New York Metro, and Passages North.
First place winner of the 2018 Luminaire Award for Best Poetry

The Coil

Literature to change your lightbulb.

Coil Poetry

Written by

Poetry at The Coil: An Independent Literary Magazine at http://thecoilmag.com. Contact Poetry Editor Lewis J. Phillips at poetry@thecoilmag.com. #CoilMag

The Coil

The Coil

Literature to change your lightbulb.

Coil Poetry

Written by

Poetry at The Coil: An Independent Literary Magazine at http://thecoilmag.com. Contact Poetry Editor Lewis J. Phillips at poetry@thecoilmag.com. #CoilMag

The Coil

The Coil

Literature to change your lightbulb.

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