
want
Jul 24, 2017 · 1 min read
I want to be swallowed whole by the cold ocean waves
I want to sink into the soil and become one with the earth
I want my existence to be less painful, more meaningful
I want to convince myself that I am worthy of unconditional love the way I am
I want to stop mourning the loss of my childhood, but it continues to plague my thoughts
I want to be happy and yet I self sabotage myself at every turn
I want to be less lonely in this big world -- I want to be alone?
I want to know what the point of it all is, why am I here, why do I exist in this constant chaos
I want to control the darkness inside me more often than it controls me
I want to be normal--but I have never been normal
I want to feel nothing
I want to be alive and happy

