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Jul 24, 2017 · 1 min read

I want to be swallowed whole by the cold ocean waves

I want to sink into the soil and become one with the earth

I want my existence to be less painful, more meaningful

I want to convince myself that I am worthy of unconditional love the way I am

I want to stop mourning the loss of my childhood, but it continues to plague my thoughts

I want to be happy and yet I self sabotage myself at every turn

I want to be less lonely in this big world -- I want to be alone?

I want to know what the point of it all is, why am I here, why do I exist in this constant chaos

I want to control the darkness inside me more often than it controls me

I want to be normal--but I have never been normal

I want to feel nothing

I want to be alive and happy

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