Apology
Published in
Nov 6, 2020
To all my lovers past
I first want to apologise
To all my lovers past
You didn’t deserve what I put you through
You didn’t deserve the guilt I laid on you
You weren’t responsible for my insecurities
You weren’t a part of encouraging my fears
I already had built-in self-destruct buttons
I had already prepared my self-defence mechanisms
Long before
I ever met you
I created my own pain
But I blamed it on you
I invented my own fears
But I reflected them in you
So, I want to apologise to my lovers past
And to the lovers in the future, that you will have
For all of the defences, guilt and shame
For all of which, I am to blame