The last week I have fallen into that exhaustive feeling, having no energy and no ambition actually to use my time. It could also be the autumn blues. Seeing everything dying gradually around you doesn't exactly give us energy. On top of it all, the last three months, I have been travelling almost non-stop, experiencing new places every day. That feeling of newness and discomfort is addicting, and I think I am feeling the abstinences of now being comfortable, living in the same place, and settling a little. Anyway, it is nice not to have many plans, finally relaxing or focusing on work. But it is also anticlimactic being in such a state of mind while being in a new fascinating foreign city with seemingly endless possibilities. I should probably just "pull myself together", but I think I need this period – I need it to calibrate.
At the moment, the last part of the travel plans is slowly coming together. As it is now, I'll Stay in Munich until mid-January before both Sophia and I (after she has defended her master thesis!) leaves for Sri Lanka and the University of Moratuwa. After that, I'll defend my thesis around mid-March before leaving for Montreal and École Polytechnique de Montréal for a months time. Lastly, we'll go to San Francisco for two weeks vacation and conference. So there is a lot to prepare, not only regarding travelling but also dissertation wise for me. Nevertheless, WE ARE GOING TO SRI LANKA!
To give you an overview (I could also use it!), this is my current todo list:
- Finalise ratio paper
- Finalise UAV paper
- Draft for bus stop allocation paper
- Structure for PhD dissertation and connection of papers
- Structure for AHP-ELECTRE paper
- Get travel and university documents for Sri Lanka, Canada, US
- Find and finish course work of 2,5 ECTS points worth
- Prepare proposition for 2-stage posterior evaluation problem at UniBwM
- Presentation at UniBwM
On top of all this, I have to be a tourist and write about my travels (and do laundry!). Sooo… yeah, maybe the feeling of exhaustion isn't only because I am settling down after travels, but it's perhaps a consequence of having a massive pile of work in front of me as well.
The Last week of the Wiesen (Oktoberfest) was cool; I went with my flatmate who works at Huawei. He brought colleagues, friends, and customers to a local Biergarten. We, of course, Started with traditional Weißwurst and Weißbier and followed with plenty of mass's (the 1 Liter beers) in the Chinese beer Garten. Later I met some danish friends from my youth soccer team. They invited me to one of the biggest Wiener schnitzels I've ever seen. I was hungover the next day, but a Korean colleague from Aalborg came by Munich for a short business trip, so we had to meet up, get some wiener schnitzel and of course beer. While eating, I noticed that the place and schnitzels size looked familiar – it was the same place as I had gone the day before. Yeezy, them hangovers... To make everything worse, the next day, I did (ish) a workout and noticed how dirty my carpet actually was despite having cleaned everything three times and vacuuming the carpet many times. So I pulled it out from under the bed and found these small larvae….. The struggle of moving all the time, but man, that was disgusting. I spent hours carefully vacuuming everything centimetre of both sides of the carpet, bed and floor before spraying everything with some magic disinfectant. Still, I am sending an angry email to the rental company.
When doing research and especially the work I do for my PhD, my mind is consumed by the work. I am entirely dived into the abstract and theoretical world of the project. That is where I do the best work, and it works very well—BUT mixing that with a year abroad, being in a constant travel mode where you have to be a little more extroverted, practical and operate on a high number of things. It is a tough combination. And I do foresee my deadlines being postponed. Because it is probably not sustainable to do all the things I set out to do. I am an optimistic planner, but with all the draws from touristy things to do and new experiences to have, it would probably be wise to chill on the planning.
With that said, everything is getting better here in Munich, and I am finding a balance. Future plans are getting settled, work is getting settled, and I am getting settled.
AND I bought a travel book about Munich so it'll be easier to be a tourist. In a state of stress, outsource!