And one day, you just broke…

And you just kept breaking and no one even knew…

Because you just kept showing up…

You kept putting a brave face on…

You kept doing what was expected…

But the inner real part of you had upped and left the building

And you so desperately want to come back

You had such dreams for your life…

Such high hopes for you…

And all the things you would do…

And yet, after years of pushing and working and trying, it all became too much and all you could see was even more of the same and you just got done with it.

No. More.

But not on the outside though…

On the outside you kept playing the games and pretending to live the life…

But you felt dead inside…

Completely dead inside…

And you do want to wake up but it feels too hard…

And the dark bubble all around you, is somewhat comforting…

It feels good to be hidden…

Almost like watching life happen around you without really being present…

Without being there…

You are watching from the outside — Like an ‘out of body’ experience…

You are looking in at all these people getting all worked up about this and that and you just cannot muster up enough energy to care…

And yet, inside you wonder why no one can see that you are not there really…

And you realise that actually, they never ever really saw you…

They just used you for what you could do…

And now that you are not there, they do not even notice…

They do not even care…

And you would cry a little except you feel too numb…

Too ‘not there’ to care…

and yet you also long to be loved…

to be seen…

To be cared for…

For someone to look long enough to see the cracks beneath the surface and to offer to help you heal…

Except you would probably say no and you would probably not let them see…

And so you are there…

Going through the motions…

Laughing at the right moment…

Appearing to be present…

But you are not there.

And you wonder if you will ever come alive again.

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