I was in a mess…

I had failed…

Dismally…

It was 4 days or so before Christmas

I was 7 months pregnant

And I had just gone bankrupt

I had failed.

And I did not do things like ‘fail’

I was the girl who was going to find a cure for AIDS, or so my parents told me

I was the girl with her head always in a book, never wanting to learn to cook or clean like a good african girl…

I knew I was going places and I was not going to be like any other person on the planet…

And yet, here I was, late twenties and I had failed…

WHAT THE F**K?!!

Except I could not even conjure up that much emotion — I felt dead inside and carried on feeling like that for the next 4 years…

Yep, I went through the motions of being alive…

I had 3 awesome princesses

Juggled being a home education mum with being a pharmacist…

Went to church, smiled and pretended all was well…

But I was dead on the inside…

I sold all personal development books…

The ones that had fed me those dreams of all the things I could do… (Yeah Right!!, I thought at the time)

And I wallowed, waiting for something, anything to shake me awake because this was not me…

THIS COULD NOT BE ME!

I had always known I was born for something more so how the heck could this be me?

I could not face it.

I did not know it then but I can see now that I was depressed…

Deeply, darkly depressed…

But functioning… (Have you ever felt that way?!)

Even my hubby did not know just how dead I felt…

I called it ‘the blank’ but no one really understood just how blank that period of my life was…

And the demands of life continued…

And I felt truly lost.

And then, the Divine got my attention…

Ok, so this is not some ‘come to Jesus’ moment — I had done that one years and years ago…

This was more of a “Yes, your floor has fallen away and all you see is failure and yet, yes, you are still worthy of your dreams” kinda thing…

And you know what?

I want to say that to you…

I want you to know that you are still the person you were before life happened and knocked you off your perch…

And that you get to rediscover who you are, in the midst of the fall-out…

Now, I understand that your story is probably different from mine, maybe worse, maybe better…

Maybe you really SHOULD BE happy now because from the outside looking in, everything is perfect…

But let’s be honest…

You have not the foggiest idea where YOU are in all of this ‘good’ life…

Somehow, the heart of you has left the building and you do not know where you have gone…

You KNOW you are born for more…

You KNOW you are capable of more…

And yet, confusion seems to reign supreme

It is time to find yourself again…

Despite all the crazy…

Are you ready?

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Much Amazing Love

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