My Word Of The Year Has Turned Into My Biggest Test

And I have been failing…

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If you choose not to read this post, pretty please consider just listening to the song linked at the bottom of this post.

When I decided to get back to writing last week after a few weeks break, I remember questioning myself, “Should you really get back on? You’re a Christian blogger, and you stil aren’t in a good place with God.”

Then, I reminded myself, “I am also a vulnerable blogger.” I write through the bad times. This is how I glorify God. I show the ugly, and then, I show the good that comes from it. At the moment, the ugliness happens to be ongoing, but I am positive that better days are to come.

So, I got back on fully knowing that I had never felt further from God, but confident that I should write through it anyway.

My word of the year is literally SURRENDER, but I have been clinging to lies, pain, and all things bad.

I am not content in these bad feelings. As normal as every person (even my pastor) says these feelings are, I can’t keep going on like this. As many of you know, I am not the most patient when it comes to myself and my life.

So, I am here to share how I am surrendering in the darkest place that I have ever been in.