Will I Actually See My Miscarried Babies Again?

“safe in the arms of God: truth from heaven about the death of a child” by John MacArthur

Photo by Ben Vaughn on Unsplash

In less than a year, I conceived two babies. Joy and love immediately washed through me the second I found out both times, but just as quickly as those emotions washed over me, grief and pain butted them out. Unfortunately, I lost both very early on. My first at eight weeks, and my second at a little over five weeks.

There was more hope that my first was going to make it. I was being monitored, and there seemed to be room for a miracle. I’ll never forget my first ultrasound. It replays in my head all of the time. Sadly, there was just a sack. It was enough to show that a sweet life had begun to form, but there was pain in not seeing a tiny developing baby with a heartbeat.

I wasn’t even allowed to watch the ultrasound for my second baby. I lost that one so fast. There was nothing to see on that ultrasound. My bloodwork only had a tiny number of pregnancy hormones to show that my positive tests were real.

I never met either one in any kind of way. I was simply pregnant and just as quickly not.

So, will there really be any kind of reunion waiting for me in Heaven?