It was like we were meant to be. It felt like I had known him my whole life. We just clicked. We talked all the time and the conversations would go late into the night.
We had so much in common!
I was on high alert for red flags
I had been love bombed in the past. I had been fed lies by men who had no intentions of keeping my heart safe. I didn’t know what they wanted but I fell for it anyway.
We both had been hurt before. We both had guarded hearts. Neither one of us knew if we were willing to open ourselves up to be hurt again. All we knew was we enjoyed the other’s company.
There were times in the past where I thought I was in love. I really thought what I felt was love. It wasn’t. Not like this anyway. That love had to be forced. I had to defend that love.
This was a strange feeling to me. The feelings I felt for this man. Neither one of us is great at showing those feelings. We don’t do romance or schmoopy acts of love.
I knew he liked me but did he love me?
All I know is I couldn’t fathom the thought of being without him in my life. I didn’t want to seem needy but I needed him in my life.
And it turns out, he felt the same way and just didn’t want to say it. For the same reasons I held back. He didn’t want to come on too strong and didn’t want to push me away.
I think we both felt that it was a bit too good to be true. It was too easy. Love had never been this easy before. That connection had never been there.
Finally, I had to know. I was falling too deep. I had to know how he felt as well. The dreaded question, “Where is this relationship going?” was met with one of the most down to earth answers I could have hoped for.
“ I enjoy being with you and you enjoy being with me. I’m not going to question how long this will last. All I am doing is enjoying you as long as I can. Maybe that will be forever.”
I love many things about this man but his down to earth nature has to be one of his best qualities. I joke he is the male version of myself. He brings out the positive side of me.
It hasn’t been forever yet but we are still enjoying each other
Our relationship is moving on as if we have been together forever. Our hearts and minds remain in sync, just like they always have.
Every once in a while, one of us will make sure we are still enjoying the other. We make sure the other is still satisfied and happy with the relationship.
Each day is filled with the love and respect we were both craving. The little things add up to the big things. And there is laughter. Lots and lots of laughter.
Even when life gets in the way and times are tough, the joy is still there. The knowledge that the other person is there for you always, that they always have your back, and they are always on your team, brings joy. It brings peace and comfort.
Sometimes things seem too good to be true
You don’t want the feelings to end so you start to question them. You fear those feelings will be ripped from you for one reason or another.
In the beginning I was afraid. I’m not afraid anymore.
For now, I’m going to enjoy these feelings. I will enjoy each day filled with love. Maybe it will just be for now but more than likely it will be forever.