One of my soul lessons:

Empathy

One of the things that used to bother me a lot is how humans could be so cruel to one another. I never understood jealousy between girls, between women. I thought that we were supposed to empower one another.

I had underestimated the powerful force of jealousy, totally capable of bringing out the worst in the envious and destroying the innocence of those targeted.

I never understood how someone could hate me passionately to the point that she had used all her power to ruin my reputation at work, she went out of her way to make sure that I would not be receiving any promotions or bonuses at work that year-end. She had started the battle that I had no intentions to fight. And of course, I did not choose to fight, I left.

I hope you know that you always have the choice to not participate, you can always choose yourself and your inner peace — life has a way of resolving itself — silence is the greatest insult, and your inner peace has already marked the ultimate revenge.

Little did I know, I could escape the battle, not the war, when the universe wanted to teach me a lesson — there was no way to save yourself — and the only path forward is to go through it.

It was in the middle of Winter when my boss told me that we were going to do our audit tests on a client site. And because she was out of town, I had to go there alone. When I got there, I found out that I had to work at the corner of their storage, with absolutely no heating device. I delivered the news to my supervisor and partners, and throughout the conversation, I knew that they still wanted me to complete the testing there. I worked until my hands were so completely frozen that I simply sent them an email announcing my departure of the day. A week later, the partner called me into her office saying how I had to improve my performance — that I was not working hard efficiently enough, while they provided no training and support for me.

That was the moment when I realized, they were cornering me. I simply couldn’t escape the lesson from the universe.

I had to make sure that I learned the lesson very well, to my core, so I would never have to retake the course.

For days, I fell into a deep state of depression, I slept for 3 days straight, and I refused to wake up. Every moment I opened my eyes, I was reminded of the inhumanity, I was reminded of the jealousy, of ingenuity, of the way people treated one another.

There was this moment when I thought that, if another soul was coming to me, and asking for my hand, to leave this earth, I would simply go. At that moment, my heart broke, into pieces — realizing how deeply wounded I had been.

That’s when I also learned that hearts were made to be broken — for the lights to shine in.

When my heart was broken, and I had to learn to piece it back together, I learned empathy — having my heart shattered taught me how it feels to lose hope in humanity, in life itself.

I learned the weight of life’s burdens and the importance of compassion, empathy, and kindness. And if you ever experience getting your heart shattered, you will learn to not be the one causing pain to others, you will learn to view life through much kinder eyes.

I always believe that books come to you in their timing, and that’s when I read about this story:

Before entering to this life, everyone signs their soul contracts with one another — to help each other learn their life lessons. Nobody comes here to hurt us; they simply play their roles as teachers — helping us to learn our lessons — fulfilling our soul contract.”

This is the experience that forever changed the course of my life, and shaped me into a different person — this is the experience that makes me the person I’m today. I’m forever thankful for the way things happened — for all the heartbreaks, betrayals, and disappointments. That’s how I learned to appreciate the people who choose to stand by me, despite all odd. It reminds me of those who love me unconditionally, through the years.

And most importantly, that’s how I learned about my inner strength — how strong and brave I could be — watching my heart shattered and learning to piece it back together.

The heart was made to be broken, that’s how the lights shine in.
People always think that they have to be strong, to show the world that they are unbreakable and invincible. But only a few brave ones know the importance of vulnerability.

It takes a lot of strength, to be gentle.

Thank you for reading 💛

My name is Tracy Ly, the author of Oncloudcyy’s Newsletter , the owner of The dreaming Tree Publication House.

I’m glad you read my article and I hope my words find you in time of need.

A couple of my friends think of me as the World-Championship Day-dreamer because I live in my thoughts and dreams more than in life. Maybe life is nothing but our bubble of thoughts and dreams. I love sharing my experiences to the world, hoping that my words somehow make people feel less alone, as writing them does to me.

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