A Great Mystery

Today was the day — I went to Church!

Despite blogging about my religious journey for three months, it took me until today to actually go to mass. It was amazing; so I want to share my experience today.

Ironically, one of the readings today was Ephesians 5:21–32. These verses are known for their references to marriage being between a man and a woman. Here is the verse that Catholics usually highlight:

For this reason a man shall leave his father and his mother
and be joined to his wife,
and the two shall become one flesh…

This references Genesis 2:21-24 when God created Eve. For thousands of years, the Catholics have used these verses to explain why Holy Matrimony is only between men and women, and why same-sex marriage is not accepted.

For years, verses like this distracted me from my relationship with God… until today. For the first time ever, I heard the ending of this reading:

This is a great mystery,
but I speak in reference to Christ and the Church.

In my mind, this leads way to other relationships that we just may not understand. I’ll be looking into this more… stay tuned.

Someone recently asked me what my thoughts were on the Catholic Church’s views on Holy Matrimony. Here’s what I told her:

I struggled to understand and agree with the Church on marriage until I really prayed about it.

Now I understand and respect the Church’s position on what makes the sacrament Holy Matrimony different from a legal marriage between same-sex individuals.

The Church sets the bar high for all people. The ideal marriage and family, in the Church’s eyes, is one where a child is raised by his biological father and mother in a loving, Catholic home.

I’ve come to respect the Church’s teachings while, at the same time, knowing I am not the only person who falls short. I will try to live as closely to that ideal as I can, and I will pray to God for the strength to do so.

She asked my why.

I’m not going to let THAT separate me from the Church.
THAT won’t determine my happiness.

I know what I’m called to do in life to find happiness:
to be a good husband, a good father, and a good Catholic.

If I sin in the process, my sins and my reconciliation will be between me and God.

Why am I sharing this? Because —
This is a great mystery.

My name is Aaron Jay Ledesma.
I’m from Houston, Texas.
I’m Catholic.
I’m gay.
I’m me.

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