Feeling Everything So Deeply
For as long as I can remember every emotion I have has been felt so deeply in my soul I sometimes feel as if I am momentarily becoming that emotion.
It’s exhausting at times if I’m being honest.
In the past, I had often asked/told myself “Why are you thinking about this so much?” “Try and forget about it” “Don’t let this consume all of your energy”…and it never worked.
I’ve been “sensitive” since I was a young child but as I got older and reached my teen years and now my twenties that stayed with me and developed into something much more and the only way I know how to make sense of it is simply saying…
I. Feel. Everything. So. Incredibly. Deeply.
I once saw a Sylvia Plath quote that made me feel so unbelievably seen. “I don’t know what it’s like to not have deep emotions, even when I feel nothing, I feel it completely”
I have no idea what it’s like to not be a person who feels everything this way and I don’t know that I’d like to find out. Although I spent many years feeling utterly plagued by this deep emotion I carry in me and wished there were times when I just felt a little less I now know that is one of my superpowers not weaknesses.
In my opinion, many people still see any sort of strong emotion as a bad thing and that having those strong emotions makes you weak, crazy, too emotional, and for us women one that I’m sure you have all heard much too often, just another emotional girl who can’t control her feelings.
However, I know now that this isn’t the case at all and I also know that I am not alone at all in my ability to feel. Sure, it may still get incredibly exhausting at times to be filled with so much emotion all the time but my ability to feel things to their fullest capacity is also what contributes to my kindness, compassion, the love I have for the people in my life, and so on.
So for anyone out there who has ever been told that they feel things too much or too hard or to just chill out. I am with you, I see you, and know that even though it may be hard some days your ability to feel is truly magical and part of what makes you who you are.
