I Was Born To Be Somebody!

“I don’t want other people to decide who I am. I want to decide for myself.” ~ Emma Watson

Well to start this post off I’d like to say that for most of my life I thought I knew who I was and who I wanted to be yet I found myself basically living a lie in some way. In more detail, what I mean is that I found myself feeding my thoughts of needing to be accepted by society and everyone in it; so I dedicated my time to striving to be what they wanted me to be: meeting their standards and expectations.

But I found myself at one point exhausted and tired of doing that as I felt like a fraud as I wasn’t being my authentic self and live my life how I choose to. I felt like I was making the job and goal of doing things that equal or result in my parents happiness a bigger priority more than the result of my happiness.

And for many times after realizing this, I began becoming the real me; more so like 40% of the real me and the remainder 60% of the real me remained bottled up inside along with the thousands upon millions of thoughts and feelings I’ve kept inside from being told by my parents.

So after the many moments of being more of the “real” me, well I eventually fell back into old patterns or back to my old self. Being the person who desperately wants that validation/acceptance from society and her parents, instead of living her own life on her own terms and living it as the “real” me that I’ve been wanting to be and remain for the rest of my life, without giving into fear of being rejected or disliked by others.

At some point, I come to the analysis, that it’s my life: I shouldn’t let society including my own family get inside my head and dictate how I live my life and who I choose to be in this life.

Face your fears. You ride them, or they ride you. ~ Girl Meets World

And I’ve already made my decision and confirmed that I’ve given my place of employment my “two weeks notice” and I’m so looking forward to my new chapter once my final shift working there has passed. Even though I’ve already had 4 days off since my last shift on Monday (May 27) and don’t work again till Monday (June 3)!

It’s about time I start living my life instead of anyone else’s! I’m not a robot and neither is anyone else here in this society and on this earth. No one should be the boss of anyone of how they should live their life and neither should any queen, manager, principal, teacher or anyone else. It’s not their life to control or demand; and plus no one is Adolf Hitler, so let’s be more real here and be our authentic selves and stop telling others how to live their lives and who they can and cannot be and anything and everything else!