Awakening
Oh how deeply we have lived a lie called limitation
How strongly we have surrendered to an illusion of separation
Oh how we have pushed away our truth to conform to etiquettes
How painfully we have questioned our worth and berated our weaknesses
Oh the endless pursuit of happiness, perfection and pleasure…
The dreams that we hold back, oh the labels, the traps and mind games in the way we love
How we banish anger, fear and shame as castaways
Oh the need to be in the drivers seat but never the passenger
But you see…it’s slowly coming back to me
Bit by bit, I am melting the armor that I was taught to wear, gently pulling off the blindfold
Quietly learning to fly, letting go of the grip of who I am supposed to be
My flaws suddenly look all too mortal and chasing approval seems exhausting
Anger and sadness now have a seat at my table, they are deserving of love
Learning the strength in softness, looking beyond faces
Making friends with trust and hope, and love my religion
Living with intention and learning to surrender are my goals
Finding myself is my new adventure and self-acceptance my journey
Mistake me not, it’s not a picnic waking up from this deep slumber
The process of awakening is one step forward, 100 steps backward
It reminds us of how we can’t escape humanness
But guess what, some lights only appear in the dark. Too much sunshine is too hot to bear.
“I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing light of your own being” — Hafiz
