It’s My Time To Fly:

Fly like paper planes

Hello everyone. I’m here today to talk about a couple important events in my life that have made is as hard as it truly is to get back up and remain strong and come up wiser; but in the end I did it because of how badly I wanted it.

To talk briefly about a couple events, I wanna talk about the first one. And that is living with mental illness like millions of others do, for me; has not been one ounce easy to do while living in our shameful society. It may not have been the kind of life that I was hoping and intending to live, but I have now known from learned experiences that living with mental illness doesn’t have to be viewed in a bad perspective per say; rather more like a perspective that mental illness comes with it’s many positive benefits.

It may not be the kind of life anyone would ever want to live, but if we are someone living with mental illness/addiction, it’s not a threat, a weakness nor a bad thing to live with. It’s way more of a good thing. Yeah we have to work harder with our mental conditions but aside from that, we can make our life whatever we want as long as we don’t let our demons, or society convince us to otherwise.

Won’t crash down, won’t back down.

As hard as this may sound to anyone, it’s without a doubt possible. And I’m one of many millions of people who are living proof that we can live a normal and empowered life with mental illness like Demi Lovato quoted in her speech! Yeah it may sound almost impossible to other who don’t live with mental illness or even those who are early into their recovery with mental illness; but deep down and with time, we will learn and be the person we wanna be without letting the stigma or our demon tell us different.

And for me, I’m here to say that all our hard work with our mental health in our recovery with mental illness gradually pays off with time and trust me and anyone who also stands by this; its more worthwhile than you may know right now!

My second important event that I’m writing here today about is on my accomplishments and that nasty yet deadly stigma around mental illness. I’ve made many accomplishments in almost 2.5 years in recovery with depression and as hard as it may sound; my parents, sister, family, and friends don’t know a single accomplishment of mine and I know (speaking as an emotionally intelligent person) one day when it seems like time, I’ll share with them all my list of accomplishments. But until then, I’m just gonna make that list and show them whether its complete or not and also continue progressing with other areas that needs improvements by focusing on myself rather than trying to get them to.

Accepting that I’ve tried to inspire them to support, love, and treat me better as per living with mental illness myself but the fact here remaining that I need to focus on myself and let them take that inspiration when they choose to themselves. And as hard as it’s been for me, not having that kind of necessary and important support that’s needed in my recovery with mental illness (living in our shameful society: stigma) I know I’ll have their support and time will tell!

But in the meantime, I’m gonna take some time today, tomorrow and Tuesday to work on my list of accomplishments and continue practicing some self care and self love. And as per also working 4 days a week at Walmart, it’s been more challenging for me to fit enough time for some self care and self love during my days off and the time before, during and after my work shifts.

But I’m gonna give myself grace here because I know and believe that it’s good enough and I can see and recognizes that it is good enough regardless of those people in which I wish could recognize and give me grace with understanding and education as per why it’s important.

Thats what I always say and remind remind myself: I like and love myself as I am now that I’ve become who I wanna be, so what makes me happy for myself instead of being and doing all that “only” make them happy and not me. Taking back my life and myself! What a truly empowering and beautiful feeling that is! I like myself the way I am and it’s not my problem anymore that others don’t like me, because I like myself!