I Finally Watched the Video of Me Being Raped — It Was Eye-Opening
And not for the reasons you think
Not many people can say they caught themselves being raped on camera, but I am one of those. However, despite having the footage for over 15 years, until recently I had never watched it.
I also have never sought a prosecution, I still don’t intend to. My reasoning was and is simple, as a former escort, if I ever went to court, they would bring my background as a former escort up.
At the time, I had no desire for that to happen. I still don’t.
But anyway, I had never watched the footage, but then a few weeks back, I did watch it and I was glad I had waited so long.
To explain why, I first need to recount the experience as I remember it.
The experience of one of the darkest days of my life — as I remember it
Disclaimer: sexual violence trigger warnings ahead, read on with caution.
It was March 2008, and I had to record some interviews for a course I was doing.
*Darryl was due to come over at 11 o’clock to film such an interview for me. He was taking an early lunch to help me out, but I totally lost track of time, as such, when the…
