Trust

October 30, 2009: Senior Year of High School

I thought I could trust her-

that’s why I told her.

She knew I thought I could trust her-

that’s why she listened.

But not only did she listen;

she made it very clear before I even spoke

that she would most definitely NOT say a word

and that I know I can trust her.

So I told her.

And now I regret it.

Because today at the end of class,

he told me that I have a really big mouth

and that he doesn’t like it…

and that she told him that I told her.

So of course I feel bad.

Not because he’s mad at me,

because he’s not.

No, it’s because I now know that I cannot trust one of my closest friends.

I asked her to keep a secret,

and she let me down.

But wait-

isn’t that the same thing I did to him?

…and didn’t the original person ask HIM not to say anything, either?