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I Think I’m Doing it Right This Time
I’m not blinded by what could be
The last time I was serious with someone, I was completely blinded by what could be, and I failed to acknowledge reality. I didn’t want to admit that my ex and I weren’t right for each other, nor did I want to accept that he was immature and would likely never grow up. I certainly didn’t want to face the fact that he was selfish.
This time there are children involved, and I know it’s important to pick the right person for my kids and me. I need someone who is responsible and who knows himself — who has a spine. The first time I got serious about someone, I didn’t think about potential children. I just assumed everything would turn out okay.
It did not. My ex is slowly figuring out his way as a parent, but prior to our divorce, I was basically a married single parent.
I did not choose well in my ex-husband. I chose based on what “could be” instead of on what was. I ignored a thousand red flags because I was having fun, but eventually, the ride wasn’t fun anymore.
The gist is I wanted to be more serious than my ex was prepared to be, even after the kids came along.
I saw these signs before we got married, and I still chose to get married. I thought he’d change, but what I’ve learned in the years since…
