Eleven Years Later, His Death’s Still Not Up For Discussion

2010: Stu fixing Cuyler’s tie before his graduation from 5th grade, the only graduation of our younger son that Stu would see. Photo by me.

Rumor has it that people talk about the deaths of their spouses. And I mean specifics about the day, the night, the morning the person died.

The sticky, sweet smell in the room, the way the light from the baby monitor glowed red and relentless on a table overflowing with pills and drops and nurse’s notes, the ping of the pain pump going off for the three…