I Wrote a Novel And Made My Daughter the Hero

My main character saves the world without hair or health or the guarantee of tomorrow.

Jacqueline Dooley
The Memoirist
Published in
5 min readApr 3, 2024

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Ana in September 2012 — She’s in the hospital’s garden for a bit of sunshine

I self-published my first novel, Doorways to Arkomo, in May 2014 after submitting it to roughly thirty agents. I heard back from about half of them, mostly with variations of this sentence, “We like your writing, but the book is not for us.” It was disheartening, but not unexpected.

I knew the book was going to be a hard sell because one of the main characters — Grace — is an 11-year-old girl with cancer.

Grace was inspired my daughter, Ana, who was diagnosed with a rare, malignant liver tumor a few months after her 11th birthday. Ana spent many weeks in the hospital, underwent chemotherapy and endured a litany of scans and other procedures before having a liver transplant in February 2013.

My reason for creating the character of Grace was simple. I wanted to cast my daughter in the role of a heroic protagonist even though she was sick.

Most heroes in kids’ books are healthy — and male. Harry Potter, Charlie Bucket, Christopher Robin, Peter Pan — they are all strong, healthy, adventurous boys. And when there are female protagonists in children’s stories, they are robust and beautiful and so very strong — Matilda, Alice…

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Jacqueline Dooley
The Memoirist

Essayist, content writer, bereaved parent. Bylines: Human Parts, GEN, Marker, OneZero, Washington Post, Al Jazeera, Pulse, HuffPost, Longreads, Modern Loss