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What Happens When You Vape Marijuana Concentrates Every Day for Five Years?

The hazy line between medicated and addicted.

Sherry Mayle
Oct 23, 2019 · 8 min read
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If you’re reading this, I have died.

When I think “addict,” I think of the crackhead who clumsily breaks your window to crawl through and steal your TV.

So you be the judge.

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You’re high at work.

A few hits from my vape pen lets me focus on one task at a time.

Being high at work doesn’t feel like the scummy thing our culture says it is.

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You lie to yourself about why you get high.

Marijuana is my medicine.

But I want them to be right.

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You might lose fifty pounds.

An entire box of mac and cheese is the number one predator of sadness.

I replaced one drug with another.

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You lie to your psychiatrist.

He noticed my new pants size and asked what I was doing differently.

He was as shocked as if I’d told him the truth.

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You’ll cough up your kidney while claiming perfect health.

Vaping feels better than smoking but makes me cough more.

I tell myself I’m fine.

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You’ll have trouble following conversations.

Silly slip-ups.

I don’t have a bottom.

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You’ll get irritable.

I have a shorter fuse than I did five years ago.

This is a recent side-effect.

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You might not be able to quit.

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Medicated or Addicted?

I’m vaping weed with lower concentrations of THC.

I’m paying attention to what emotions I use weed to mask the most.

I’m reading Rachel Lewett.

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