THE NARRATIVE ARC

My Baby Knew Me Before She Was Born

We’ve always lived between the pages

Martha Manning, Ph.D.
The Narrative Arc
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7 min readOct 26, 2024

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I am 4000 miles away from my daughter Sarah, her husband Tomas, and my baby granddaughter, Luisa. The FaceTime contact and digital photos are wonderful. But today they aren’t enough. I press PLAY on an old title labeled, “Luisa Reads.” It’s a bit of an overstatement, since she was all of five months old at the time.

In the crib

My granddaughter Luisa lies flat on her back in her crib, ten days out from grueling, but successful open-heart surgery. A feeding tube is taped to her face, with bulky yellow mittens attached to hands that will try to yank it out at every chance.

She wears a side-snapping T-shirt that I bought as a joke the year before, with words from my favorite lyricist, “The Boss.” In bright red print, now it really tells the tale:

“Man, I’m just tired and bored with myself,
Hey there baby, I could use just a little help,”

In response to Luisa’s escalating fussiness, Sarah, pulls out two wildly shaped and colored stuffed animals. She moves them all around. She makes them sing. She tries different voices.

Nothing.

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Martha Manning, Ph.D.
Martha Manning, Ph.D.

Written by Martha Manning, Ph.D.

Dr. Martha Manning is a writer and clinical psychologist, author of Undercurrents and Chasing Grace. Depression sufferer. Mother. Growing older under protest.

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