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THE NARRATIVE ARC
What Reiki Really is…
And how it’s helping my neurodivergent soul
Always a little trepidatious about the comments on my videos, I opened this one with an eye closed, pirate style, as if that would make hurtful words less impactful (maybe that’s why pirates wore patches… they were very sensitive and couldn’t quite face the words of trolls?).
“What the f*#k did I just watch?” was what the person, whose YouTube handle identified them as a “gamer,” had to say.
There was a time — not too long ago — when I would have found that comment very upsetting. I wish that weren’t the case, but it’s true. I’m autistic and extremely sensitive, and my ‘oddness’ has made me the subject of ridicule my entire life — beginning in my own household when I was a little child.
So why then would I open myself up to more ridicule, on a potentially global scale, by posting the absurd videos I make on a nearly daily basis?
What I am is what I am
There was not a lot of joy in my life until recently. I can put a timeline to my happiness — it began in 2020, as the world, ironically, crumbled. I can’t with certainty say whether the two events were causal were…