I didn’t go to work today. I stayed home and took care of myself. I did not sleep away the day, or do nothing but watch movies or television; instead, I wrote letters, emails, stories. I built structures with my “zen” blocks, tore them down, and then built new ones. I listened to Dan Carlin tell me about Rasputin and Woodrow Wilson and the end of the First World War. I found a fun recipe, bought groceries, and made a delicious dinner. I shoveled the lane in front of our house and then did fifty consecutive pushups; I tried to do sit-ups after that, but failed after fewer than a dozen. I read a few articles, read two chapters of a book, and now am getting ready to go to sleep.
It wasn’t a productive day — I have an incredible amount of work to get done and taking a day off was a horrible idea when it comes to my professional to-do list — but it was a stimulating, invigorating one. I have been struggling, recently. There is too much to do, and I am not accomplishing what I had set out to get done. Parts of life and work are falling through the cracks, and I am overwhelmed, frustrated, almost-defeated. I am finding it hard to take the time to breathe, no matter how hard I try.
I needed a day off to myself, a “mental health” day of sorts. On this day off, I kept myself stimulated, active, engaged; I did not allow myself to wallow, and for that, I feel better, already. I will return to work tomorrow and undoubtedly struggle through the day, but at least, for now, I am breathing, I am thinking clearly, and I know that whatever is bringing me down, this too shall pass.
- Why you’re so unhappy now. The winter has the power to bring anyone down. The best thing we can do is embrace it and make sure we take care of ourselves until the season passes.
- The age of loneliness is killing us. George Monbiot argues that loneliness is the biggest issue facing society today, and has a pretty compelling argument.
- Merging two loves, a project by Matt Allard, takes the cover art of famous books and extends them into the space around the book.
- Surprising benefits of forgiveness. Someone once told me they would never forgive me and would easily forget me. I said I would easily forgive them and never forget them. In the end, I think I’m doing better because of that.
- The “Henri Matisse: The Cut-Outs” exhibit at the Museum of Modern Art in New York closed this past Tuesday. If you didn’t get a chance to check it out in person, the New York Times has an interactive walkthrough of the whole exhibit on their website.