Everything Makes Sense Looking Back
If you asked me just over two years ago what I wanted my life to look like I would have told you something very different. Two years ago I would have given you a list of aspects of a life in the city, with a job or steady contracts in the media field. I would have mentioned healthy relationships with my partner, family and friends. What I wouldn’t have mentioned was a life filled exploring, travelling the country and an almost insatiable desire to be outside.
Now, that’s all changed… and it totally makes sense.
Today I live with this confident knowledge that I am meant to travel this country and share that journey with others. I have no idea where it will lead and yet I do have an idea where it came from. The late Steve Jobs said: “You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.”
When I look back, I can see how I got here. When I look forward, I have no precise way of telling you where I’m going. That feeling used to terrify me. Now, I focus on core values and make decisions based on those values. Don’t get me wrong, I still feel terrified, but far less than I used to.
Two years ago I valued friendship, honesty, love and a desire to invoke positive change in myself and others. I was invited on the CBC Beetle Roadtrip Sessions and I travelled the country helping to share stories about Canada and Canadian Music. There, meeting people from across Canada, something started to click. I searched out similar opportunities and a year later Andrea and I toured around Ontario all summer for Autoshare. Through these campaigns, so many of our friends were inspired to get outside and go on their own adventures!
I knew I wanted to keep doing similar work but I had no idea how. Then, a few months ago, Matt approached me with this project. He asked if I wanted to summit the highest peak in every Province and Territory and share that journey with the world. Without hesitation I said, “Yes.”
Shortly after deciding to join Matt on this journey, I reflected on the project and it terrified me — it still does — but in a different way than I mentioned before. It’s a more confident fear and I know where my values and ambitions lie. It’s a massive project that I know will only get more difficult. My desire to reach these peaks is stronger than most of the things I’ve felt thus far in my life. I want to be out in the Canadian wilderness exploring. Constantly. While I know little else, I know that, and I know that the decision to be a Peakbbager will lead me forward.
Originally published at thepeakbaggers.com.