For Papa

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I.

You say you will never give up
You will always keep trying
To get me back, pull me back in
What you don’t see
Is how much worse you make it

You can’t understand
Won’t understand
What the real problem is
And I am sick of explaining it

You just don’t want — won’t
Hear the truth of the situation
If you can’t hear what I am saying
How can you apologize?

“I’m sorry for whatever I’ve done”
Never cut it before, doesn’t now
Apologies demand actions and words
But you are too stubborn to change

The real problem isn’t in the past
It is what you won’t see now
You can’t see — won’t see ME
You see what you want to see

Stepping outside yourself seems
Too much bother, too much effort
You can’t even fake caring
Unless it is about your needs

II.